Post by arulin on Aug 8, 2006 1:13:11 GMT -5
Whenever I would try to ask for help with my character all I got was the same old line. When I try to defend my view I got shuned and rebuked.
When did you acturally help me at all? I have the the logs of the only two times we talked over AIM and the few emails. Sorry, I see you just sitting there telling me to start another character or that it wasn't going to work, you never gave any suggestions except that one that made no sense at all I'll explain why in a moment. Then when I goto Coconut Castle, which btw Angel is there, I BEGGED I mean BEGGED Rainsong not to trash me as Cres and you have. I said to ask my specific changes please. ( reference : www.coconutcastle.proboards102.com/index.cgi?board=general&action=display&thread=1154466006 ) . The only other time I said anything directly of Co3 on that board before MistyMoonlight started this , because it did bring insperation the picture, as stated:
If the admins at Co3 would of given me some help on a character like that picture has I may been acturally thinking of playing an actural pony....Instead I got "You need to play a regular pony first”. Its been 6 years since I last played a mlp...Love that top picture, if that would had been dropped into front of me instead of the pile of bull that was handed to me, I may have acturally role played a mlp. At least it looks something like my soul at the moment, dragon side. ( reference www.coconutcastle.proboards102.com/index.cgi?board=piccys&action=display&thread=1154452063 )
I lit into MistyMoonlight for the fact that I was sick of it. I let her have the full monte on how I felt about you and Co3. If that hits home well that is what kind of nasty taste you left me with. Telling me that I wasn't able to bend or change, I did not know what you were looking for because you never gave any kind of useable advise. It was cold hard as a rock, start a new character with what, you guys are the story masters here and could not get a lack of sense out of what you wanted in a character!
Why not actually help in creating characters for those who maybe totally lost. I think with me sitting there tossing out ideas at you and not getting anywhere that might been an a hint. I can understand the character pushing but I haven't rp'ed in mlp in 6 years (2000 being the last time). The only way I could of known by myself of the idea in the story was to take it slow and steady, be allowed to test the water and do what post as I've done on Coconut Castle and leaped in. Then I could asked actural questions that might have some logic behind it. I did not even have enough idea to even start making a regular pony and believe me Arulin as a character would had been about the same posting as in the cottage act with Night on Coconut Castle in here and proably sticking next to Audra like I have there. Then I started asking other players like Starhopper, who we have a friendship starting, if I could interact with that character and if I needed help I asked about it....No I could not even have that , it was start a new character which I did not what in the blazes you were looking for that I could feel comfortable in, you folks are not the only ones who have to feel the fit.
So in other words, taking the examples from Coconut Castle before MistyMoonlight started this and hassment of me after Audra (my fiance irl) told her to stop; I think that this approach is far better than starting some new character pony and not having a clue about what the mess is going on. You and your admins would have just left me hanging and completely lost and plus with social anxity scared to move since my Arulin was going to be shot and I was to play some new pony in a cold setting with no help what so ever of what is going on. Think of being nakid in New York on Boardway and you might understand, proably not though.
Besides that I made these referencees not knowing Coconut Castle was a Sister Site most were either begging for a fair shot or making reference to the inabilty that you had with me. Come on, you didn't do anything but run through my bio once. I could not even get you to understand that it was a hard task for me to create something in a story like this. think I want to be playing a dead character with a storyline like you have here. Only thing I could tell was that it was a great way to lose a character, yes I know about the rules but Admins may in force the rules does not always mean they follow them i.e Memphis cops bust drug lord, then take drugs and sell them on the streets.
If maybe you took an example from Rainsong, made a person welcomed and feeling like they have some kind of control over the character to be played and gave them a month of your time (without you blowing up when the person is without any good ideas to you and saying look let's Build a pony and give personal intstructions to how you can work in this game. (I.E Dungoen and Dragons 5 book set, Star Wars RPG 6 book set of how to play the game) and the admins for questions as they played it might go better, a suggestion a good one at that. I barely see enough help from you or your admins to fill a 11 by 8 page which the D&D books are 50% bigger that that at least per page. I am by no means an expert , defintely not in Coconut Castle but if I need to reference the help I can ask and will get it from her or the players here without a negitive tone in the wording (Cres this is pointed at you as well with your “(quite overly powerful, I might add)” that was about as friendly as winters in Canada. It sounded like to me that you were making reference that I had to be oh so much better than others or I had to make a case of it with that statement. Should of left that out or something because that was the wrong sentence to put it in if you wanted it to mean something else. ). Think about what you say, believe me I am now as I am re-reading and taking into concideration of not to go cursing out a blue streak but to state all that I can to maybe give suggestion clearly and without question in them of what is meant, especially here in the paragraph.
Not all people work the same way. Some get it right off. Some have to have time taken with them. A week isn't always long enough, if you think that way with how many times we met and talked...Then so be it, it took me 4 months of playing “Magic the Gathering” and asking question on how to even build a deck, easily said hard to do so many cards and oh boy some of the rules, and even then I made some really bad decks and whole heap of mistakes. Those who taught me would let me rant about how I tried then took my deck and shown me better ways or where I went wrong in my builds. At times I would be running too many stratgies and they have to set me down and tell me where I went wrong and WHY....Four months of patience to get me started in Magic, that is how it's done!!!! You gave up after a week and say that you helped, said that I was not willing to do anything even when I asked you what you thought of. Even my first week I had to have a guy take three of my decks, toss out about 75% of my cards, and build me a simple easy deck to work with at first (My mono black rat deck with Nightmare that I still have today). Yes I could do D&D before hand, I thought it was a lot like Magic but I found it only could help me so much in learning Magic The Gathering. If you think a week is enough and just telling the person no this and no that then you are fooling yourself. It takes as long as it takes and dear lord never say your players are not going to welcome a character because again cause that makes them sound like they are all closed minded as you did with me.
Thankgod you don't call all the shoots in Coconut, Angel and I fear of you doing that believe it!
As for Rainsong/Sweet Pop, she is a hundard times better than you, maybe younger but kind and more willing to help.
She works hard to treat all well and if I did wrong by her standards than I have something to really to reconsider in myself. If she ask me to leave I will only because I respect her. She showed kindness not only to me but Audra as well. If it was not for Misty running her trap and driving me nuts I would had left quietly, would not leave me alone even after Audra requesting her to stop posting to me I would not set this in Rainsong's lap. She said to tell her if this happened again and shortly after that MistyMoonlight sent me two more nasty pms.
This should be all I should have to say. I don't think you are as great an admin as you see yourself nor Cres and maybe not even Roxanne since it seemed that after 5 days one could drop a line by me even if they are busy. If one can post an rp one could answer a pm. It seems that I have set things straight. I hope you will take what I have posted and concider your thoughts and what examples I have set before you. Since you are proven to be so harden I doubt that you would consider any amount of what was done your fault. Unfortunately so....
I see my own and will list them. First was the fact that I was scared of the fact that if Arulin was being denied how was I to make something that I could put the same effort in to it without any kind of help from the admins would it get stomped in like Arulin. Instead I should of said what dose it matter like Audra had told me.... Secondly was the fact that I did rage a bit maybe if I had not been in such a desire to put Arulin in, maybe if I had not put so much of my heart and soul into the first submit it would not had been so hard to take a rejection. Thirdly, maybe I should of listened to Audra and not looked for a place here. She had a bad feeling about here and you may not believe in it but I do believe she is strong in the sixth sense irl. Fourth mistake, coming back this morning after being battered by MistyMoonlight for the second time. I am stricted with social anxiety and dis-lactic as Roxanne knows since I misinterpreted a post she made pm to me (possibly after effort of the stroke), even online. So that maybe considered another mistake is coming to a role play and finding that folks are hard to talk to and understand. So those are my faults in this that I can see. Before I forget forget this last fualt I should not had given pm premission to fight there. I left myself open in that it was an oversight of mine that I should had seen, Hind sight is only 20/20 and I was foolish in that phrase.
Audra was right about this place and was right about telling me that you don't matter at all, you weren't even willing to put effort into helping anymore than a few days of emails and meets...Should of listen to her...You will get to hear from her soon, it will not be pretty or pleasent as she has told me she is going to do. Honestly , I don't have to tell you anything but I do becuase I pitty you with her. Think I am something...You haven't seen nothing yet...I love her but her rage , I can't hold a light to it and she has much to say to you. It will only be once so maybe in that fact it will be better. Just listen and pick out the information and try to learn from what was said here and from her but indeed she is angery at you and MistyMoonlight. Maybe Rainsong and Starhopper can calm her but I don't think that will stop her. I will not for it is not my place to tell her what to do but to stand by her and support.
I hopefully will have a place in Coconut Castle so Starhopper, Angel, Audra, Rainsong, and myself can role play and interact without this happening again, ever again.
When did you acturally help me at all? I have the the logs of the only two times we talked over AIM and the few emails. Sorry, I see you just sitting there telling me to start another character or that it wasn't going to work, you never gave any suggestions except that one that made no sense at all I'll explain why in a moment. Then when I goto Coconut Castle, which btw Angel is there, I BEGGED I mean BEGGED Rainsong not to trash me as Cres and you have. I said to ask my specific changes please. ( reference : www.coconutcastle.proboards102.com/index.cgi?board=general&action=display&thread=1154466006 ) . The only other time I said anything directly of Co3 on that board before MistyMoonlight started this , because it did bring insperation the picture, as stated:
If the admins at Co3 would of given me some help on a character like that picture has I may been acturally thinking of playing an actural pony....Instead I got "You need to play a regular pony first”. Its been 6 years since I last played a mlp...Love that top picture, if that would had been dropped into front of me instead of the pile of bull that was handed to me, I may have acturally role played a mlp. At least it looks something like my soul at the moment, dragon side. ( reference www.coconutcastle.proboards102.com/index.cgi?board=piccys&action=display&thread=1154452063 )
I lit into MistyMoonlight for the fact that I was sick of it. I let her have the full monte on how I felt about you and Co3. If that hits home well that is what kind of nasty taste you left me with. Telling me that I wasn't able to bend or change, I did not know what you were looking for because you never gave any kind of useable advise. It was cold hard as a rock, start a new character with what, you guys are the story masters here and could not get a lack of sense out of what you wanted in a character!
Why not actually help in creating characters for those who maybe totally lost. I think with me sitting there tossing out ideas at you and not getting anywhere that might been an a hint. I can understand the character pushing but I haven't rp'ed in mlp in 6 years (2000 being the last time). The only way I could of known by myself of the idea in the story was to take it slow and steady, be allowed to test the water and do what post as I've done on Coconut Castle and leaped in. Then I could asked actural questions that might have some logic behind it. I did not even have enough idea to even start making a regular pony and believe me Arulin as a character would had been about the same posting as in the cottage act with Night on Coconut Castle in here and proably sticking next to Audra like I have there. Then I started asking other players like Starhopper, who we have a friendship starting, if I could interact with that character and if I needed help I asked about it....No I could not even have that , it was start a new character which I did not what in the blazes you were looking for that I could feel comfortable in, you folks are not the only ones who have to feel the fit.
So in other words, taking the examples from Coconut Castle before MistyMoonlight started this and hassment of me after Audra (my fiance irl) told her to stop; I think that this approach is far better than starting some new character pony and not having a clue about what the mess is going on. You and your admins would have just left me hanging and completely lost and plus with social anxity scared to move since my Arulin was going to be shot and I was to play some new pony in a cold setting with no help what so ever of what is going on. Think of being nakid in New York on Boardway and you might understand, proably not though.
Besides that I made these referencees not knowing Coconut Castle was a Sister Site most were either begging for a fair shot or making reference to the inabilty that you had with me. Come on, you didn't do anything but run through my bio once. I could not even get you to understand that it was a hard task for me to create something in a story like this. think I want to be playing a dead character with a storyline like you have here. Only thing I could tell was that it was a great way to lose a character, yes I know about the rules but Admins may in force the rules does not always mean they follow them i.e Memphis cops bust drug lord, then take drugs and sell them on the streets.
If maybe you took an example from Rainsong, made a person welcomed and feeling like they have some kind of control over the character to be played and gave them a month of your time (without you blowing up when the person is without any good ideas to you and saying look let's Build a pony and give personal intstructions to how you can work in this game. (I.E Dungoen and Dragons 5 book set, Star Wars RPG 6 book set of how to play the game) and the admins for questions as they played it might go better, a suggestion a good one at that. I barely see enough help from you or your admins to fill a 11 by 8 page which the D&D books are 50% bigger that that at least per page. I am by no means an expert , defintely not in Coconut Castle but if I need to reference the help I can ask and will get it from her or the players here without a negitive tone in the wording (Cres this is pointed at you as well with your “(quite overly powerful, I might add)” that was about as friendly as winters in Canada. It sounded like to me that you were making reference that I had to be oh so much better than others or I had to make a case of it with that statement. Should of left that out or something because that was the wrong sentence to put it in if you wanted it to mean something else. ). Think about what you say, believe me I am now as I am re-reading and taking into concideration of not to go cursing out a blue streak but to state all that I can to maybe give suggestion clearly and without question in them of what is meant, especially here in the paragraph.
Not all people work the same way. Some get it right off. Some have to have time taken with them. A week isn't always long enough, if you think that way with how many times we met and talked...Then so be it, it took me 4 months of playing “Magic the Gathering” and asking question on how to even build a deck, easily said hard to do so many cards and oh boy some of the rules, and even then I made some really bad decks and whole heap of mistakes. Those who taught me would let me rant about how I tried then took my deck and shown me better ways or where I went wrong in my builds. At times I would be running too many stratgies and they have to set me down and tell me where I went wrong and WHY....Four months of patience to get me started in Magic, that is how it's done!!!! You gave up after a week and say that you helped, said that I was not willing to do anything even when I asked you what you thought of. Even my first week I had to have a guy take three of my decks, toss out about 75% of my cards, and build me a simple easy deck to work with at first (My mono black rat deck with Nightmare that I still have today). Yes I could do D&D before hand, I thought it was a lot like Magic but I found it only could help me so much in learning Magic The Gathering. If you think a week is enough and just telling the person no this and no that then you are fooling yourself. It takes as long as it takes and dear lord never say your players are not going to welcome a character because again cause that makes them sound like they are all closed minded as you did with me.
Thankgod you don't call all the shoots in Coconut, Angel and I fear of you doing that believe it!
As for Rainsong/Sweet Pop, she is a hundard times better than you, maybe younger but kind and more willing to help.
She works hard to treat all well and if I did wrong by her standards than I have something to really to reconsider in myself. If she ask me to leave I will only because I respect her. She showed kindness not only to me but Audra as well. If it was not for Misty running her trap and driving me nuts I would had left quietly, would not leave me alone even after Audra requesting her to stop posting to me I would not set this in Rainsong's lap. She said to tell her if this happened again and shortly after that MistyMoonlight sent me two more nasty pms.
This should be all I should have to say. I don't think you are as great an admin as you see yourself nor Cres and maybe not even Roxanne since it seemed that after 5 days one could drop a line by me even if they are busy. If one can post an rp one could answer a pm. It seems that I have set things straight. I hope you will take what I have posted and concider your thoughts and what examples I have set before you. Since you are proven to be so harden I doubt that you would consider any amount of what was done your fault. Unfortunately so....
I see my own and will list them. First was the fact that I was scared of the fact that if Arulin was being denied how was I to make something that I could put the same effort in to it without any kind of help from the admins would it get stomped in like Arulin. Instead I should of said what dose it matter like Audra had told me.... Secondly was the fact that I did rage a bit maybe if I had not been in such a desire to put Arulin in, maybe if I had not put so much of my heart and soul into the first submit it would not had been so hard to take a rejection. Thirdly, maybe I should of listened to Audra and not looked for a place here. She had a bad feeling about here and you may not believe in it but I do believe she is strong in the sixth sense irl. Fourth mistake, coming back this morning after being battered by MistyMoonlight for the second time. I am stricted with social anxiety and dis-lactic as Roxanne knows since I misinterpreted a post she made pm to me (possibly after effort of the stroke), even online. So that maybe considered another mistake is coming to a role play and finding that folks are hard to talk to and understand. So those are my faults in this that I can see. Before I forget forget this last fualt I should not had given pm premission to fight there. I left myself open in that it was an oversight of mine that I should had seen, Hind sight is only 20/20 and I was foolish in that phrase.
Audra was right about this place and was right about telling me that you don't matter at all, you weren't even willing to put effort into helping anymore than a few days of emails and meets...Should of listen to her...You will get to hear from her soon, it will not be pretty or pleasent as she has told me she is going to do. Honestly , I don't have to tell you anything but I do becuase I pitty you with her. Think I am something...You haven't seen nothing yet...I love her but her rage , I can't hold a light to it and she has much to say to you. It will only be once so maybe in that fact it will be better. Just listen and pick out the information and try to learn from what was said here and from her but indeed she is angery at you and MistyMoonlight. Maybe Rainsong and Starhopper can calm her but I don't think that will stop her. I will not for it is not my place to tell her what to do but to stand by her and support.
I hopefully will have a place in Coconut Castle so Starhopper, Angel, Audra, Rainsong, and myself can role play and interact without this happening again, ever again.
